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Sunday, September 14,
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Living life in imaginary worlds
Manisha Gangahar
Ambrosia for
Afters
by Kalpana Swaminathan. Penguin Books. Pages 233. Rs 250.
ALL
of us, perhaps, live many lives in the span of a single life. There
is an overlapping of landscapes, locations, cultures and positions.
In Ambrosia for Afters, Kalpana Swaminathan explores the
double life of 15-year-old Tenral. The novel probes the two worlds
in which Tenral moves. Tenral says, "I lead a double
life." One is that of an ordinary schoolgirl while the other
revolves around her teacher, Mrs Alfie. The idea of a double life is
elucidated in the beginning of the novel where Tenral explains:
"A double life needn’t mean Jekyll and Hyde. One could be
Jekyll in both. Or even Hyde. That isn’t the issue`85All you need
for a double life is a wall that divides your two selves — a wall,
an abyss, an interruption, something that stops your headlong rush
from one self to another". It is quite clear early in the
narrative that the dual life is not the result of a split
personality disorder.
Whether it is keeping
one’s own secrets or attempting to intrude into the secret lives
of the people around one, it is all a part of growing up. An
interesting pastime for school students is speculation about the
lives of their teachers after school hours. Thus, Tenral and her
friends flesh out Mrs Alfie’s life in their imaginations. In fact,
more than their concern for Mrs Alfie, it is their dislike for her
that initially rules over their imagination. Mrs Alfie clings to the
past and her "once upon a time love" is the central force
in her life and it is her persistent devotion towards her lover, who
no longer alive, that is her life force.
The striking feature
of the book is the fact that the past is constructed through
imagination, for reality, till almost the end of the story, is under
cover. Not only is the Gothic romance recreated through fairytales
but the past is also made to fuse with the present. Just as
fairytales are far from reality, the myths that are created about
Mrs Alfie’s past life are not based on truth or first-hand
knowledge. The distorted fairytales seem to justify the scenario
described in the novel where nothing is simple, reiterating the fact
that reality can, in fact, be constructed and truths can, perhaps,
be fabricated. Also in the real world, unlike the world of fantasy,
no longer is the end as convenient and beautiful as "they lived
happily ever after".
However, the
self-created world of Tenral is not completely bizarre, for the
reader would readily endorse certain revelations about life that
made by the young girl who seems to have an amazing comprehension of
the maze of worldly life. One cannot fail to take note of the wisdom
of statements like: "Clothes never conceal you. But words can.
Words can hide a person more effectively than a burkha`85words
make the world a slippery place`85words are meant to make you
believe in something that’s not there".
The title of the novel
is also quite provocative. The literal meaning of ambrosia is ‘the
elixir of life’, in other words it refers to something that
sustains life. On the one hand, the author, perhaps, tries to convey
the idea that the past is significant for understanding the present
and it is impossible to bury the past or get rid of it; while on the
other, the novel is tries to bring out the conflict between the real
and the imaginary world. Neither is wholly comfortable or pleasant
yet a choice has to be made by Tenral. The culmination of the
narrative brings out certain truths but whether the turmoil going on
inside Tenral ends there is left for the readers to decide.
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